too bad

too often i awake

and feel reality is never

where i thought it was

when my dreams that i

hardly remember are more

comforting than whatever this is

it's too bad that i shut

myself away whenever

this shit happens

it's too bad

it's pretty sad

but someday i'll wake up

and won't feel so alone

i'll also get up

and not feel so old

i'll look to the sun and

know that you can see it too

it's true

and i love you

it's true, i love you

it's time to realize the

facts of the situation

over here

let's not be fooled by none

especially ourselves

let's just take it slow

one day at a time

and we'll get by

we'll be fine

then we'll get gone

sail away on some idea that

won't fade away

get lost on some ship or other

we won't need another body around

cuz i'll never drown with you

i know i'll never be found

without you

so come on and give us

that face with the name

that i love

but you can go whenever you want to

you can be whoever you fancy

you can do all that you can find a way to

i just hope that along your way you'll

find me again

oh, do you think you can find me again

on this island?

if not, too bad

if not, it's not so sad

because i know you'll never go away

from here (my heart)

Amber

Everythins moving around in a groove and looking at me. The words on the page lose their pre-prescribed meaning as they rearrange and relate to other words that have come alive. So all I do? my part is just to observe before the fall.

2012

i got my blanket back

i got my blanket back

but 2 souls are taken

2 more are gone

i could have known them

i could have shared

but i just close back up

close back up and dig a hole

to hide in

time is provoked

time is lost

given to the poor?

no, just wasted away

what is with the mindset

of this generation

not losing but wasting and on repeat?

what would our parents say

if they really cared?

what would our parents say

with their arms crossed, jaw barred?

what would our parents say

to us, the ones who had it all to spare?

were we really ever truly aware of what we had?

we must press on

we will move on

but we will never trespass on

forgetting each other

so much to build on

so much to grow on

nothing will break this strong

family apart

we have too much heart

we'll go so far together

alone together,

together alone

as long as we we realize there's something, something irreplaceable

that we own

something we always have shown

in our fortress of make-believe,

but never to be confused with

a make-believe fortress

there's always more to add

there's always more to say

but all good things must come to an end

Tearing

Have you ever had tears travel over you nose

Passing a crossroads on the map of your face

A message from the eyes, the portals of the soul

Looking for and running from a private embrace

Did you ever feel one thing and say another

Just to please the general atmosphere

A quiet thing that maddeningly pierces the truth within

As you are torn between roars or tears

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DEAR WHOEVERYOUTRULYARE:

MUST I HAVE AN AUDIENCE FOR MY OWN EMOTION?

I'M SEARCHING FOR A FERTILE IMAGINATION, A NOTION

SO UNLESS YOU, THERE IN THAT SEAT

ARE WILLING TO LIVE IN THIS WILD HEAT

I DON'T WANT YOUR DISORIENTED PITY AND STARES

YOU DON'T KNOW ME. SO WHO FUCKING CARES

My thoughts are congealed, never known
Unless I choose to let them out…
Alone together or Together alone?
Maybe one day We’ll have it figured out

Another Possibility

Dim and Bright are the paths I must choose from tonight

My heart - pumping fast and blind, my head - aching from thought of light

Deciding shouldn't take it so hard

But my conscious is suddenly caught off guard

The time that's lost, nature will not requite

But the Sun and Moon were both born glowing bright

A piece of me wants to break - a shard

But what happens then to the pieces I discard?

Realizing the journey is painless

Climbing too quickly can be dangerous

But I can never choose which way is the call

If I won't allow myself a chance to fall

Another Proclamation

I wanna be up in the clouds with my head

Blown around by coarse and gentle winds instead

Separated and strewn over land and sea

Up to and thru the sky's city

Being and feeling everything at once

To be out of this trap - finding a response

Then shooting back down, a burning meteor

To dance upon Earth's magnetic interior

All I want is my journey to be realized

Something to aspire for and not be compromised

But when others fail to comprehend or rely

Inspiration to articulate does nothing but die