I leave to go back to the Lou in 2 days. Once I'm there I will realize that I have missed it, but it will be strange. Strange, because I'm not the same person that I was exactly one year ago, so it's almost as if I'm starting college all over again, and my friends will have to meet the new me. They probably won't even know the difference. I'm still crazy. That's all the same, though perhaps slightly amplified, so I hope they're at least ready for that. I'm finally ready to reveal Me. Me in my entirety, which I have learned this summer, is the only way to be if I want to do anything in this world worth noting.
The puzzle pieces from my life that were scattered and forgotten have come back, raining on me this summer. That sounds rather ominous, and when it started, I WAS scared about what it all meant...but when all the pieces landed, they all matched up - the pieces that were blank before, now linking together to create not a line, but a chain of different sized links. The smaller links that were disregarded before, were suddenly now the most important. In hind-sight, they were the most vital to the mere preservation of Me. The Me that I have finally started to know, see and embrace. I have a lot of people to thank for that, and I have, but I don't think they can possibly know how much they helped me. I've told them 9692740184 times (that's an approximation), but here's the 9692740185th time: THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU FROM THE DEEPEST DEPTHS AND CHAMBERS OF MY HEART AND SOUL.
BLEH ENOUGH OF THE VAGUE "DEEP" TALK LET'S GET TO THE DIRTY STUFF...later.
