to never not, not be

Been up all night long

Staring at nothing for far too long

It’s nearly seven AM, what a gem it might be to see the sunrise..

That’s not really what I’m thinking of

Surfacing coherency would be lovely.

If I could crack a whip on my thoughts

And not let their forward motion quit

Then surely I could never not

Be sitting here writing this old shit,

But here I am again, it seems-

Thoughts consumed by mindless dreams

Which could never not, not be, never not, not be

Gone?

Silent Song of Longing

Open your mouth. Speak. Give me something to work with. A hook. A nod. Something I can live with. I'm here for the taking. But you're barely waking up. I have a life to live, and so much to give you, if you'd only open up and Speak.

I have stolen eternity in just a moment. I feel her power and it’s a torment. I cannot carry this alone it must be returned. Unless I grow another heart or my love is earned. So why don’t you rise up to meet me? Why don’t you take this road by my side? Tell me if you’re scared and I’ll be with you. But it seems right now I’m alone on this ride.

too bad

too often i awake

and feel reality is never

where i thought it was

when my dreams that i

hardly remember are more

comforting than whatever this is

it's too bad that i shut

myself away whenever

this shit happens

it's too bad

it's pretty sad

but someday i'll wake up

and won't feel so alone

i'll also get up

and not feel so old

i'll look to the sun and

know that you can see it too

it's true

and i love you

it's true, i love you

it's time to realize the

facts of the situation

over here

let's not be fooled by none

especially ourselves

let's just take it slow

one day at a time

and we'll get by

we'll be fine

then we'll get gone

sail away on some idea that

won't fade away

get lost on some ship or other

we won't need another body around

cuz i'll never drown with you

i know i'll never be found

without you

so come on and give us

that face with the name

that i love

but you can go whenever you want to

you can be whoever you fancy

you can do all that you can find a way to

i just hope that along your way you'll

find me again

oh, do you think you can find me again

on this island?

if not, too bad

if not, it's not so sad

because i know you'll never go away

from here (my heart)

Amber

Everythins moving around in a groove and looking at me. The words on the page lose their pre-prescribed meaning as they rearrange and relate to other words that have come alive. So all I do? my part is just to observe before the fall.